I want someone to love me for who I am. I want someone to need me, is that so bad?

Nothing makes sense, nothing makes sense anymore
Nothing is right, nothing is right when you're gone
I'm losing my breath, I'm losing my right to be wrong
I'm frightened to death, I'm frightened that I won't be strong

I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am

Hey!

I'm shaking it off, I'm shaking off all of the pain.
Breaking my heart, breaking my heart once again

I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am
--Nick Jonas & the Administration

I know, I know I quoted a Nick Jonas song, but these lyrics inspired me. One of the reasons I'm doing this whole 'lifestyle change' is because I want that serious relationship. I want marriage, I want kids, I want someone to love me for me. The only problem is that I don't even know who me is anymore. People always says you have to love yourself before someone else can. How can I expect anyone to love me when I don't even love me? I'm supposed to be my own best friend, but in reality I'm my own worst enemy. I can't trust that someone will love me, when I'm so self conscious that I constantly question their actions, or if they really mean what they say. This diet is not only about losing the weight, it's about finding out who I really am. I really believe that whoever I am deep down inside, is someone worth loving. I just have to shed all of these layers to find that person. Then maybe, just maybe I'll find someone who I love for who they are, and who love me for who I am.