You're having delusions of grandeur..

12/31/09
weight: 260
BMI: 39.5

3/4/10
weight: 237.4
BMI: 36.1

My weight loss tally is 22.6 now! I honestly cannot believe that I've managed to lose over 20 pounds since starting this journey. I finally feel like I can honestly do this and keep it up!

On Sunday I went to play Laser Tag with my friends for a birthday, and the whole day I was thinking of backing out simply because I was scared I wouldn't be able to fit in the vests. I mean those vests are aimed toward little kids, not overweight adults. When I voiced my concerns my two friends in the car with me reacted like I had just told them I had 3 heads. I couldn't help but think, am I really that delusional or are they just being good friends? I've been haunted by fear of not fitting into things. Going to theme parks, a supposed fun experience, was always mixed with anxiety. Would I be the person that is asked to leave the ride because I don't fit? I actually passed up an opportunity to go to Disney World for the first time a few summers ago because I was so scared I wouldn't be able to fit on the rides. And I almost considered not going to play Laser Tag because of my fear. Yet again I was faced with my being overweight hindering me from living my life. After my friends assured me that I would in fact fit in the vests, I went to the party and had so much fun that I'm seriously considering going there for my 21st birthday in April. Oh, by the way..the vest did in fact fit...with room to spare!