Go girl, it's your birthday!

12/31/09
weight: 260
BMI: 39.5

4/14/10
weight: 220.8
BMI: 33.6

This past weekend was my 21st birthday and I had made a deal with myself that from Thursday-Sunday I wasn't going to count what I was eating and just enjoy my 21st. My view is that those 4 days are only FOUR days out of an entire year where I let loose on my weight loss journey, so no harm no foul right?

Thursday evening I drove up to Baton Rouge to go dress shopping and bring in my birthday with my bestest friend Amanda.

Birthday dress #1

Birthday dress # 2

I hadn't eaten hardly anything leading up to dinner, so it was safe to say that when 8 o'clock rolled around I was ravenous and just wanted to devour everything in site. We ended up getting Chick fil A and I decided, "Screw grilled chicken and a salad", I really want the fried chicken sandwich and some waffle fries. Words cannot describe how delicious that meal was, and I definitely enjoyed every last bite of it. (When I got home the next day I looked up the points for my meal and it really wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be.)

We celebrated my birthday by having some mudslides and then going out at midnight so I could buy my first alcoholic purchase....Abita Purple Haze beer.



Enter Friday, my actual 21st birthday. My mom was a sweetheart and took me and a couple of my friends to dinner...I picked Cucos (a mexican restaurant). We managed to get there during happy hour, so I just HAD to get a double frozen margarita, right? Right. It was so delicious and I rounded out our dinner trip with a make your own burrito, complete with sour cream, mexican rice, and loads of shredded cheese, and chips and queso dip. Yet still managed to only have 2 little bites of the free fried ice cream I got since it was my birthday.



After dinner, me and my friends headed for the hotel room my beautiful best friend Tracie snagged us for my birthday. When I walked into the hotel room, Tracie, Lien, and Vivian had managed to completely cover the floor with black and pink balloons and had streamers hung up in the hallway. It was so beautiful and I was so touched that someone would do all of that for me that I cried. Best.birthday.EVER.

SERIOUSLY, how amazing is that cake and birthday card?!

I managed to stay on point drink wise, limiting myself to 2 drinks, some shots, and one beer. And even got some activity points in by dancing until almost 4 am. :)








Best night ever? Yeah.

Saturday night I went to dinner with my entire family at Copeland's Cheesecake Bistro. I ordered a Mai Tai..mmm, and we got the spinach and artichoke appetizer, my favorite. It was muy delicioso. Then my mom and I split the chicken ceaser sandwich, it came with fries and you know I attacked those, and each got a side salad. After dinner I went to a friend's apartment just to enjoy some good company with people I loved...a good way to end my birthday weekend.

I may have gone a little overboard on the whole "off weight watchers" for the weekend thing, but I don't regret it at all. I even stepped on the scale yesterday and the damage wasn't as bad as I was dreading it to be. I managed to get myself right back on plan this morning and am bracing myself for a gain this week. You need slip ups every once in a while, no one's perfect and if you put that pressure on yourself to be, it's only going to backfire on you.

I'm flying high, defying gravity.

12/31/09
weight: 260
BMI: 39.5

4/8/10
weight: 221.4
BMI: 33.7

After skipping last week's weigh in because of being sick and having relatives in town, I didn't really find myself nervous for this week's weigh in, because quite honestly I know I haven't been eating a good deal of my allotted points these past two weeks, simply because I haven't been home and haven't had the time..I know those are both horrible excuses and I know that's me being a bad weight watcher, but what can I do? I'm going to get back to actually eating breakfast lunch AND dinner, not one or two of the three a day. But I'm nervous that when I get back to my normal regime I'll gain some of the weight back. I know once I get back into the swing of things those pounds will just come off like they're supposed to, so I'll be okay.

I weighed in yesterday over 7 pounds lighter but I couldn't even be excited for it because I knew I was cheating the program by not eating. This is my promise that I'll get back to my schedule after my birthday weekend...next weekend.

In happier news, I went to see Wicked this past Wednesday and for the first time in my LIFE, I wore a strapless dress in public, and I don't think it looked that horrible.

Exhibit A:

And looking on the bright side of things...my 7 pound loss means that I only need to lose 1.4 pounds at next weeks weigh in to meet my goal of -40 by my birthday! I think I can actually do it!

On the horizon, as the morning breaks...I can see a brand new day that's full of new mistakes.

This weekend has been full of a lot of temptations for me. I spent Thursday-Saturday at my aunt's house and whenever my family gets together, the house turns into Yummy Food City and I used to be the mayor of it, content to eat everything that was in front of me just because it was all so dang good. But this year I was more than happy to just be a tourist visiting for a few hours.

On Good Friday we have a tradition of boiling crawfish and crabs...which I don't eat, so no worries there. And we also have...temptation #1: stuffed artichokes. These babies are one of my top 5 favorite foods EVER, so you know there was no way I was passing it up. I looked up the points value for one beforehand and simply adjusted my day's worth of eating so I could have one. Seriously, it was so worth it, I can still taste it just by thinking about it.

Since my nanny won't be here for my birthdaylater in April, she lives in Houston, and my sister's birthday was this last Thursday, we had our birthday celebration on Good Friday with my nanny. And that brings in temptation #2: Red Velvet cake...my mouth watered just typing that. I had gone back and forth all day trying to decide if I wanted a little piece or not. By the time I was cutting everyone's pieces I had decided to pass on the cake, so I wouldn't feel guilty about indulging a bit over my real birthday weekend. :) Truth be told, I did have a little taste of the icing off the plate the cake was on...mmm.

Temptation #3: Easter. Over the past few weeks I would flip flop from telling my mom to just get me a couple pieces of candy to just not giving me anything at all. I quickly nicked the second option, because I didn't want to feel like I was depriving myself of anything. So the easter bunny filled my little basket with weight watcher friendly treats.



Nerd's Rope
whole rope
calories: 90
fat: 0
fiber: 0

Mamba fruit chews
per 6 pieces
calories: 100
fat: 1 g
fiber: 0

Tootsie pops
1 pop
calories: 60
fat: 0
fiber: 0

Necco wafers
1 roll
calories: 220
fat: 0
fiber: 0

I went shopping yesterday and got a really cute dress from Target, so I put it on and took a progress picture to post on here.




I know I've been neglecting my poor blog, so here's my vow to stay on track from now on. I was really sick last week, so for the first time...I skipped my weigh in this past Thursday.
But never fear...here are my results from the Thursday before that.

12/31/09
weight: 260
BMI: 39.5

3/25/10
weight: 228.6
BMI: 34.8

I've lost 31.4 since January and I'm 8.6 pounds away from my goal of having lost 40 pounds by my 21st birthday. Anyone think I can lose 8.6 in 2 weeks? Seems a bit impossible to me, but I'm going to try really hard anyway! :)

Oops...

I just remembered I never posted this past week's weigh in results! Naughty naughty fletchy wetchy!

So, I'm just going to post the results and try to think of an actual blog to write after this weeks results in a couple days.

12/31/09
weight: 260
BMI: 39.5

3/18/10
weight: 232.4
BMI: 35.3

I managed to bring my tally up to 27+ pounds lost! And I hit my 10% weight lost last week, it was beautiful!

And my lovely mother his her goal weight as well, bringing her weight loss total to 100.4! What an inspiration she is!

Did I ever tell you you're my hero?

I'm dedicating this blog post to my mom because whenever I don't know if I can go on with my mission, I just look at her and see how far she's come and I see that I CAN do this.

My mom is .6 away from her goal weight, she's lost 90+ since she started weight watchers and I couldn't be more proud of her. She's my biggest inspiration, motivation, hero, best friend and cheerleader without even knowing it. Her strength seriously boggles my mind. She pretty much single handedly takes care of our family, has a full time job, cooks delicious dinners for everyone and still finds time to exercise and put her weight loss journey first. I would love nothing more than to grow up to be just like her.

This weeks results:
12/31/09
weight: 260
BMI: 39.5

3/11/10
weight: 235.4
BMI: 35.8

I was dreading weighing in today because I swore I was going to gain. I stepped on the scale and braced myself to see my leader give me a pity look, only to have her say "CHA-CHING" and whisper you're down 2 pounds! I need to have more confidence in myself, because I've stayed on point with weight watchers for 10 weeks now, and still I'm second guessing my success. When she said that I had lost 2 pounds, my first thought was: "I must not have been standing on the scale all the way or something." I couldn't just congratulate myself and see that all my hard work is paying off. Believing in myself is my biggest fault and I'm really trying to work on that, guess this weight loss journey is about losing more than the weight. I need to lose the self doubt, negative energy, and shyness.

For next week I'm aiming for losing 1.6 so I can get over 25 pounds lost AND hit my 10% at the same time! And my mom is determined to reach her goal weight this week!

So fingers crossed that next week is a week of celebration for us both.

A dream is a wish your heart makes...

Photo blog time!

Me at my start weight of 260

And me now..a little over 22 pounds lighter.

I honestly don't see a difference, but the dress I'm wearing is flowy and a little big on me..so maybe that's why.

I went to the Disney Princess exhibit at NOMA this past weekend with two of my friends and we had a mini photoshoot in City Park, and I just wanted to share some of the pictures with y'all.

NARNIAAAAAAAAAAAAA! :)

You're having delusions of grandeur..

12/31/09
weight: 260
BMI: 39.5

3/4/10
weight: 237.4
BMI: 36.1

My weight loss tally is 22.6 now! I honestly cannot believe that I've managed to lose over 20 pounds since starting this journey. I finally feel like I can honestly do this and keep it up!

On Sunday I went to play Laser Tag with my friends for a birthday, and the whole day I was thinking of backing out simply because I was scared I wouldn't be able to fit in the vests. I mean those vests are aimed toward little kids, not overweight adults. When I voiced my concerns my two friends in the car with me reacted like I had just told them I had 3 heads. I couldn't help but think, am I really that delusional or are they just being good friends? I've been haunted by fear of not fitting into things. Going to theme parks, a supposed fun experience, was always mixed with anxiety. Would I be the person that is asked to leave the ride because I don't fit? I actually passed up an opportunity to go to Disney World for the first time a few summers ago because I was so scared I wouldn't be able to fit on the rides. And I almost considered not going to play Laser Tag because of my fear. Yet again I was faced with my being overweight hindering me from living my life. After my friends assured me that I would in fact fit in the vests, I went to the party and had so much fun that I'm seriously considering going there for my 21st birthday in April. Oh, by the way..the vest did in fact fit...with room to spare!